i always have problems starting these things... thats probably why i dont write when i feel like it.. ill start a blog and then end up deleting it because i dont like it so i have a good few drafts but not so many actual posts.
so basically the other day i decided to give up on someone that iv been struggling with for the past four years.. i like to consider myself a pretty selfless person when it comes to anyone i care about.. honest to god there are the select few that i would do anything for.. that select few has continued to deplete this year.. its bothering me.. pretty bad in fact.. the realization that people dont care about me half as much as i care about them is slowly creeping under my skin.. its people like that that are pushing me further into my peter-pan complex. im already pretty damn resistant at growing up and the harsh realities im begining to face this year are only making that battle a little harder... i miss climbing that big ole pine with the low branches at my granny's house.. i miss playing comando in the creek with my guy cousins... i miss throwing apples at the cows and betting quarters which way theyll run.. god i just miss being a lil kid.. i was so naive.. ignorance is bliss as they say.. iv never been quite sure who "they" were but if "they" are reading this... right on!
i hate those fake bitches that claim they are better friends with guys and that they only hang out with guys when they do NOT! instead they are all over their guy "friends" and act like fucking whores!!!!! asldkjf;oashdnf;klajsdnhf;ljasdfj;lakj god just admitt youre a damn whore and be done with it! unless i have feelings for the guy i do not act one smidge different around them than i do any girls i might hangout with.. im just sick of fake people.. yeah i know most people are hell im sure everyone is to a certain point but i hope to god im never so obviously fake..
by the way sorry if my blog is turing out to be too bitter but im kind of using it as a venting device =)
eh i think im done.. or at least what i can actually write on this here thingy
oh wait..... i cant wait till basketball season!!!!!!!!!!!! god it makes me all tingly all over =) woo hoooo!!
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