never look back but never forget

i should have asked for a punching bag for christmas... everyone asks what the most annoying sound in the world is. after several years of extensive research i have came to the profound conclusion that my mother is that sound. i always wondered why i had so many ear aches when i was child. its always an eye opener when you look in the mirror and see a trickle of blood running out of your ear. sometimes i would love to kick her in the knee caps. dont get me wrong love my mom but we are polar opposites with the worse possible similarity, stubborn as hell. god forbid she is ever wrong. chameleons aint got shit on her. she goes from angry bitchy bigot to sweet quiet lil ole eloise that can do no wrong. and people have the nerve to wonder why i am so cynical about religion.. having it shoved up your ass since you were a baby and getting to see first hand the hypocrites in action doesnt exactly fair well with becoming the "christ-like" christain that you/i was forced to become. alksdj;alksjdf;lakjsdlkfja grrrr






on the bright side i cant wait till tonight or tomorrow! tonight basketball game and hopefully staying out (cant break my streak and all) and then sunday..dun dun dun.. SUPER BOWL!!! wooo! go giants! nothing against the patriots but they win too much. sexy tom.. i still love you though =)




Whats the difference between kinky and perverted?
Kinky is when you tickle your girl friends ass with a feather.
Perverted is when you use the whole chicken...

hahahhaha

smile like a saint; curse like a sailor

soooo....im diggin the break so far! it has been incredibly relaxing to just chill and not have deadlines and crazy teachers *cough cough* to make me take a second look at the pistol that daddy has hidden in his gun cabinet. if its hidden that says something huh? the only catch is i do have a paper i have to do before school starts back.. boooo.. you suck AND you are a total prostitute.. yeah you!

the way cosmetics are these days im wondering how long it will take all those brilliant beauty doctors to come up with a way to copy and paste some one's face without surgery.. all the cremes and needles and pills.. im sure it wont be long..

commercials suck.. actually tv sucks in general.. theres no wonder propaganda works so well.. that damn spider pig song from the commercial for the simpson's movie has been stuck in my head for days now ever since i saw a piggy shocker in my brother's car(dont ask..) repeat something enough and inevitably it embeds itself in your mind.. i believe aliens have taken over the world..commercials are their secret weapon to control the lazy population of america.. coach potatoes beware!

i hate pink.. i hate flowery shit.. i hate ruffles.. combined they equal the elements of the devil.. my aunt got me a pink flowery ruffled pillow for christmas.. imagine my joy =/ i cant say i dont love the woman to death but as long as she has known me (or rather as long as i have been able to think for myself) i dont think she has ever caught me with anything that would give her the slightest suggestion i am a girly type of gal.. even when i was three i climbed trees and played army with my brother and cousins.. she meant well so of course i attempted the "oh-my-god-how-did-you-know!!!" performance

people suck. period.

i want a boxer so damn bad!

our boys basketball team needs to shape up they have been entirely to sloppy and are increasingly pissin me off game after game! tonight however they looked a bit better hopefully the previous loss woke them up.. i guess well see.. as for our girls they kick ass and im proud as hell of them for improving so much since freshman year! "get it girl!"=)

my new years resolution is to not be so blunt with people and to think before i speak.. my mouth has been getting me in trouble lately 0=)

welp.. i finally did it

well its about that time.. scratch that its past time.. way way way past time. but itll be okay im pretty sure no one has lost sleep at the loss of my oh so interesting blog.


i hate disappointment. i hate when im watching a movie that i saw years before and loved but when i watch it now it fails to live up to my expectations. the disney classics have yet to disappoint me though =) i love disney. it makes me smile. maybe its cause ill always be a child at heart but there is just something about flying carpets and singing bears that will always bring a smile to my face.


my cousin came home for thanksgiving. its been great seeing him again. i couldnt be any more proud of jeff. hes always been a swell guy but i now respect him in some of the same way i respect my dad. i can tell how hes changed.. some for the better and yes some for the worse.. hes focused hes sure hes confident hes faithful hes everything a soldier should be but.. hes cold.. im not saying hes completely heartless but i keep seeing this look on his face that almost scares me. i cant really describe it but when i saw him again it looked like he had forgotten he was ever a cocky lil fart back in the old days.. i still remember playing in the creek throwing rocks at his ass (i always won haha)... now he has no qualms about killing someone.. i can only imagine what he has been through and i respect him so much and love him all the more for the sacrifices he has made and will make but i still miss the old jeff.. he grew up fast.. too fast.. god help god bless and god keep you jeff.. you wont hear me say that much but god be with you..



i quit drinking coffee awhile back.. yeah not so much anymore iv had 14 cups within the past 48 hours... not exactly quit am i?


well i attempted to blog but im a little too jumbled up at the moment to say much of anything... its been a long run these past few weeks...wish me luck...

ever feel like writing a story? yeah me too bobby. sometimes i feel like i have an alter ego. lets call him bobby. yes hes a guy. just because a girl would get on my nerves. what fun would having an alter ego be if they pissed you off? iv already got one giner why would i want another one? bobby agrees. today me and bobby had an in depth conversation about life. we came to the conclusion that its flying by entirely too fast. could i write a letter of complaint to life and ask her to slow down i need to take some pictures to show my grand kids? it sure would be courteous of her to take a nap or hell even a breather would be deeply appreciated. any want to help start up a petition to tie bricks to life's feet? maybe just for a lil while because im pretty sure after awhile life would get tired and just stop all together and that would end badly... whats that bobby? oh youre tired too? well it is getting pretty late we might go to bed soon so hold your horses and stop acting so whinny.

Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else's opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation.
-Oscar Wilde

sad isnt it? how completely unoriginal are we these days? i always get a tickle out of these kids that walk around with originality stamped on their foreheads. and of course all the stamps are blue and black with tiny stars as the dotted i's. pleasee people dont be so naive.. just about everything you do say wear or believe did not come souly from you.. someone else before you decided that they were original. haha gotta love the people that glare and whisper "poser" under their breath when someone not normally associated with their social class walks wearing the same belt as them (irony at its best) hell most of them probably saw their sooo stylish and unique hairstyle on their idol petey boy the week before while watching "taboo" mtv hahahaha ahh people these days! to sit back and watch some people really cracks me up! oh and one quick note before i crawl in my lil ball to sleep... just like the unique kids out there are those that are so desperate to get out of blairsville. haha the majority of those that bitch and moan about how terrible it is here will end up going to college realizing how much better off they were in blairsville and come back or they are just too damn ignorant to make it in the big bad world out there that they come home to live in mommys basement. i personally love blairsville. sure the people here are asses but i challenge you to find somewhere that doesnt have a few here and there. itll be nice to graduate travel around experience different cultures and learn as much about any and everything that i can but inevitably i will come home and live in the quiet north georgia mountains =) maybe its not for some but to me its home and ill be damned if someone trys to tell me im an ignorant redneck because i love my home!


so iv said my peace and its about that time so...
"So long, farewell, auf Wiedersehen, good night
I hate to go and leave this pretty sight
So long, farewell, auf Wiedersehen, adieu
Adieu, adieu, to yieu and yieu and yieu"


^^sound of music crackers ;) yeah so im a nerd..

urgh.. not sure????

i always have problems starting these things... thats probably why i dont write when i feel like it.. ill start a blog and then end up deleting it because i dont like it so i have a good few drafts but not so many actual posts.

so basically the other day i decided to give up on someone that iv been struggling with for the past four years.. i like to consider myself a pretty selfless person when it comes to anyone i care about.. honest to god there are the select few that i would do anything for.. that select few has continued to deplete this year.. its bothering me.. pretty bad in fact.. the realization that people dont care about me half as much as i care about them is slowly creeping under my skin.. its people like that that are pushing me further into my peter-pan complex. im already pretty damn resistant at growing up and the harsh realities im begining to face this year are only making that battle a little harder... i miss climbing that big ole pine with the low branches at my granny's house.. i miss playing comando in the creek with my guy cousins... i miss throwing apples at the cows and betting quarters which way theyll run.. god i just miss being a lil kid.. i was so naive.. ignorance is bliss as they say.. iv never been quite sure who "they" were but if "they" are reading this... right on!


i hate those fake bitches that claim they are better friends with guys and that they only hang out with guys when they do NOT! instead they are all over their guy "friends" and act like fucking whores!!!!! asldkjf;oashdnf;klajsdnhf;ljasdfj;lakj god just admitt youre a damn whore and be done with it! unless i have feelings for the guy i do not act one smidge different around them than i do any girls i might hangout with.. im just sick of fake people.. yeah i know most people are hell im sure everyone is to a certain point but i hope to god im never so obviously fake..


by the way sorry if my blog is turing out to be too bitter but im kind of using it as a venting device =)







eh i think im done.. or at least what i can actually write on this here thingy














oh wait..... i cant wait till basketball season!!!!!!!!!!!! god it makes me all tingly all over =) woo hoooo!!

just for you sweetcheeks!

so im just a lil bit confused... why in the hell would anyone want to come to blairsville to get their "american experience"?...i dont know maybe im wrong but if i went to another country say france i would want to visit a culturally thriving area like tokyo (yes i know tokyo isnt in france its a kendra joke people).. yes i do realize that blairsville is actually overflowing in culture but im not talking about the southern hilly billy culture im talking diversity people! now dont get me wrong i love good ole blairsville and i do in fact know i will be living here in my future but honestly who would want to spend their time away from europe here with abunch of redneck jackasses who have their heads shoved so far up their own ass apparently they can only see in black and white.. white being the predominant color of course! ugh!... i went off on a guy the other day which ironically wasnt from blairville.. but anywho he was making fun of a friend of mine and i got tired of it.. he got mad cause he said he was only kidding and i needed to learn to take a joke.. no im sorry theres a point where you stop.. he obviously cant see red either.. oh the people these days.. im sure iv carried some stuff too far before but not to purposely hurt someone. hell i know im the worlds worst at making fun of people but its usually just in jest. god forgive me if i ever become one of the ignorant bastards like any other redneck in blairsville. but ill step down from my podium now and talk about lighter matters...ill do it tomorrow (maybe) its beddy bye for kendra-poo =)





happy now?!?! now you can read it and i wont get any damn comments! lol

*gag*

omg.... i feel so incredibly bad right now... i think its about time kendra took a break from one weekend rompe...ughhh i feel so sick...