welp.. i finally did it

well its about that time.. scratch that its past time.. way way way past time. but itll be okay im pretty sure no one has lost sleep at the loss of my oh so interesting blog.


i hate disappointment. i hate when im watching a movie that i saw years before and loved but when i watch it now it fails to live up to my expectations. the disney classics have yet to disappoint me though =) i love disney. it makes me smile. maybe its cause ill always be a child at heart but there is just something about flying carpets and singing bears that will always bring a smile to my face.


my cousin came home for thanksgiving. its been great seeing him again. i couldnt be any more proud of jeff. hes always been a swell guy but i now respect him in some of the same way i respect my dad. i can tell how hes changed.. some for the better and yes some for the worse.. hes focused hes sure hes confident hes faithful hes everything a soldier should be but.. hes cold.. im not saying hes completely heartless but i keep seeing this look on his face that almost scares me. i cant really describe it but when i saw him again it looked like he had forgotten he was ever a cocky lil fart back in the old days.. i still remember playing in the creek throwing rocks at his ass (i always won haha)... now he has no qualms about killing someone.. i can only imagine what he has been through and i respect him so much and love him all the more for the sacrifices he has made and will make but i still miss the old jeff.. he grew up fast.. too fast.. god help god bless and god keep you jeff.. you wont hear me say that much but god be with you..



i quit drinking coffee awhile back.. yeah not so much anymore iv had 14 cups within the past 48 hours... not exactly quit am i?


well i attempted to blog but im a little too jumbled up at the moment to say much of anything... its been a long run these past few weeks...wish me luck...